that means ive been awake for 72 hours, 4320 minutes & 259 200 seconds just thinking...thinking bout why ive lost the grip of life...or is it life that has lost its grip on me? & a lot of other questions thats been going through my mind on and on on again but I dont seem to find the answers. Seriously I feel sorry for my brain cells cause my head is really not a good place to be at right now.
in life u make mistakes, u mess up but after a while u recover n get back on track but this time its seems like I can never find the way back to my old-self again, like ive been mentally abused, like im searching for my soul that ive lost... I simply feel empty. I try to fight it everyday tho, i put a smile on my face & try to forget it n think bout other stuff that makes me happy but it just dosent work, yea of course it works on people around me they think everything is fine just because u have that happy face on n not seeing the royal rumble match that is going on in ur head.
Im learning tho, ive learned something new everyday. One of the important things that ive learned during this time was that people WILL let u down, yes, im talking bout those who sit down n listen to ur story n act like they care but when u finally need them they are nowhere but in their own selfish world not giving a damn. Its hard to believe it i know but trust me on this one.
How ever ive been fighting my own battle with life for a while now & I will continue with it everyday. I still have faith in myself and I know that I will make through this phase or I have to cause life is 2 short & u should be nothing but happy during this beautiful struggle called "Life".
P.S Dont get fooled by my fake smile ;)
